So, I've been down in VA for the last week for my Mom's 50th birthday!!! It was nice, they took me to the ocean for the weekend, and then on tuesday (her day) they went out to eat, while I baked Mom a birthday cake. It was a nice respite for me, and I'm really anxious to get back to Boston and get moving!! I have therapy lined up for tomorrow and hopefully, I'll be going up/down stairs. I pushed myself to go upstairs with no help, but it was a little difficult, going down however, was almost disastrous! One step at a time, eh!? ; ) Yeah, I nearly lost my balance. I have to remember to stretch myself out in the morning and at night before bed, because I'm stiffening up and have lost a little bit of the flexibility I had gained. I really would love to be settled in my own place, either working or studying. I'm looking at schools in the Boston or DC areas, and also jobs, likely in Virginia.

Cait is desperate for me to settle down by June, so I can take my 'niece' Maggie for a while. I still haven't met her yet, but I hear she's a little under the weather these days. I was hoping to see Cait and Jared, but it didn't work out for them to come to Mom & Dad's this weekend. My Mom can't find their digi-cam!!!!!! So, I couldn't take any pics of me and my pal Toula. I saw Gussie's death certificate, and it made me cry. But I know she's in a better place.

I'm hoping I'll have a better attitude and that things will speed up here! To be honest, I've had up and down times in terms of dealing with this recovery. I mean, I'm glad I can finally walk now, albeit a bit unsteady. My leg is still too short!!!! UG!!! So, on Friday, hopefully I'll get that fixed, and very soon it'll be all finished. I'm praying the insurance will cover the prosthesis or atleast most of the cost, because it is very expensive. I realize my parents are very low on funds due to me, and I'm anxious to get a job and pay them back for it, as well as my sister. In 2 weeks time we'll find out where my brother will be 'stationed' and what ship he'll be sailing on for the next 4-5 years. I'm hoping he'll get to go to some place cool, like Hawaii or San Diego. (Japan is unlikely for new grads). They have home US ports, and then their ships sail around the world on tours of duty. So, yeah, let's see. I'm sure it'll be a great opportunity for him.

Well, I'm almost done packing up and I fly out in a few hours....we gotta move!!!

I miss all of my friends so much these days, I've been kinda lonely. But being with family is always a blessing, and so I'm looking forward to going back. I don't know how I'll ever repay my aunt & uncle's kindness for letting me stay with them so long up in Boston. I've kind of taken over their couch!! ; )

Anyways, stay tuned, I plan to try driving sometime soon!!!!! woo-hoo!!! (seriously, watch out tho, there's no guarantees, and ofcourse the last time i drove was in Oxford, on the other side of the car, on the other side of the road). I was going to try here in VA, but Mom & Dad's parking lot at the school is too full of cars! So, hopefully up in Mass, I'll get a chance.

There's this kind of pit of no return
She feels like she's falling into
It's patience she must learn
But depression she's akin to
She wants so much to break free and fly
But the bars on her cage hold fast
So she just sits and sighs
As days, months, roll past
She's tired and worn
From hopes being strung out
She's sad and forlorn
She fights a silent bout
She's lonely and low
She wants to be home
She misses the familiar so
Seems she's stuck in her plastic dome
Her singing - it feels fake
Her laugh, is just a joke
She's frustrated, make no mistake
No matter what words they spoke
It feels like a never ending tragedy
There's no resolve in sight
She feels like a jetty
That the waves pound with might
Tossed here and there
She knows no direction
How can she share
Her misfit reflection?
Ups and downs, lefts and rights
Spirals and vertigo, a whirlpool
If only a horizon on which to set her sights
Then maybe she wouldn't feel the fool

Life's little difficulties can set you for a whirl
You go from a high to a quick drop low
All around you the possiblities swirl
Which one is hers to claim, to know?
She doesn't want to know despair
She wants to be strong, head held high
They say that life is never very fair
She wants to proove them wrong, soar the sky

She wants her freedom back
She longs to break the chains
It's the key that you lack
So you resign to the pains
You hope someone comes along
Sees her there, head hung low
Says, 'buck up, it won't be very long
Now,' -- remember, I told you so